This was the goal I set for myself about 5 years ago. Right there on the cold tiles of the kitchen floor, sweatpants, empty bottle of wine next to me…right there in that moment of absolute hopelessness, right there at “rock bottom” where so many of us have been before; I decided that I WOULD simply do all of the things I wanted to do. You see, I never dyed my hair before. I never bought a new wardrobe before. I never actually traveled anywhere I actually wanted to go before. Yet there I was, planning it all out, and who was going to stop me? I made a ridiculously long bucket list. Right then and there in that moment, I decided I would make my life beautiful, because I had wasted enough time already living a life I couldn’t find any peace in. I decided I would no longer break promises to myself, no matter what! I chose me. It was the best decision I have made so far.
For those of you who have been following the bucket list blog over the years, you’ve watched me cross one after one off of that ridiculously long list! You have celebrated with me, cheered me on, listened to me rant on and on about dating after 30 and how my feet really fucking hurt from training to run longer distances. You’ve put up with my profanity, my vulgarity, my random humor…. and dammit, I love you for it!!!
It’s that time of year where we all start making promises to ourselves. Maybe we don’t call it a resolution because that’s a lot of pressure, but a focal point for the new year. It could be one word, it could be a single goal or a ridiculously long and “impossible” list. Whatever you decide, may it be something that is true to you. May it be something YOU actually want. May your resolution/goal/word/list start with an “I am..” and not a “We are..”; May you shoot for the moon and land among the stars, may every day of your life be as beautiful and as momentous as that moment in which you decide to actually start living it.
Be brave. Be unrecognizable by 2019!
With that said, The Bucket List blog has come to an end, but I’m not going anywhere! I’m making a new kind of list. Stay tuned for new project starting 1/1/2018.
Oh and in case no one has told you lately, you are amazing and I am so happy you are here.